I am the jack of hearts and the ace of spade. Vulnerable to false starts and debts unpaid. I am the shadow of shadows, held in black. An icy finger running laps along your back. I hold the hand of fate, counting down from five. Feel my heart beat, know my thrive. I am the jack of spades and ace of hearts. Vulnerable to challenges and made roads a part.
Angry as hell But I can’t Cry and let it out cause I Don’t want anyone to realize that Even though I may seem strong outside I really am Frightened and scared to know that I may never Get to truly be Happy cause my real feelings are stored on the Inside. So I laugh it off as if it’s a Joke and I’m only just Kidding around. I really need to stop this because I’m Letting it control My everyday life. I need to go back to feeling Normal and try to Overcome this pain that’s forever Promising to not let me get up. I want to go back to my Quintessence where life was understood and rarely Reviewed because I always knew what Steps I was going to Take next. And I always Understood what my Very purpose Was here on this world. But now I’m feeling like a Xenophobe. Like I hate all people but myself when what I’m really Yearning for is someone to Zap me back to reality.