Just A Verse Is All You Get

Night's spent... Dark skies until the sunrise.... 
heightened senses with impaired vision but the view, breathtaking... 
Prepare to bare witness... sights seen like dreams but eyes open, frozen in time.... 
My guiding light golden, shine... Behold the wonders of the world through words spoken... 
Chosen are those who have chosen but chose wisely.... Finding solace in confined spaces.... 
Once consumed with the scent of roses, now nothing left but traces.... of broken flower vases...
basic blameless basis came from a paint brush stroke... An art piece... An Artist... farfetched regardless... My departure is far spent, Daylight turned from darkness.

Assume The Position

 Sirens blaring being blinded by a flash light
More on looking pedestrians than the black hawk crash sight
Just last night
He was laying in bed dreaming of a peaceful place
Now he's standing here, hand on this hot ass hood pulled over cause of his race

Experienced

I Was Not Born 
Experienced
But
The Hard Realities,
Deceiving Natures,
Broken Promises,
Double Faces,
Attractive Words,
Melting Emotions,
Lovely Feelings,
Harsh Truths,
Bitter Behaviors,
Loving Attitude,
Ignoring Acts,
Multi Standards
& False Statements.
These All Taught Me
What Experience Is

UNanswered

I sit alone

My curtains are drawn 

The silence envelopes me

Cradles me in its loneliness

I hear a voice of reason

But I cannot listen

It speaks again

Shouts for my attention

But I do not hear

I see the light penetrate

My minds intense darkness

But cannot move towards it

It grows bright

Beckons me to notice

A beacon in my night's sea

But I turn, and let it fade

Love out of Time

 

Feet exhausted from walking this thin line, Captivating my heart and restraining my mind, reminiscing as the last bit of sand vanishes into the identical remains beneath, guess love has run out of time! Forewarned in advance with Premonition, Fatigued with paying attention so now I'm done listening!!! Escaping my mouth the word Goodbye because I’d rather Let Love Die than give love a try! Now if I said it then I meant it, Days into hours and hours into minutes, to make a long story short this is how I’ll end it.

Skeptic Heaven {collab feat. Juan Johnson}

I have been in this war far too long....I have waited to come home so long.....I haven't opened the letter that I got from my sweetie, cause I'm afraid its a "dear john".  I love to hear her voice and to see her eyes in the machine we call the computer.....I open the letter and it reads....:

"In your tears you make me soft, you gently blow to dry me, your anger stirs my soul, your warm sun walks through my fields where I let you lay, waiting for me to cover you....but I can't wait, I long for you, yet can't have you. Searched for you., but can't see you. You ignite my thoughts, then leave me suspended. The envisage is more than physical, a vision unable to be touched. A moment conceptualized in the mind of the leery, anticipated by the deprived. "

I cry....I don't know what to say but I do know what to write. So I sit down to pen my thoughts to my anxious awaiting at home:

I can't wait until I fulfill every thought you have been having, every touch you wanted,  and to satisfy your mind so that you will know that I too, am attracted to you for more than that of the physical. My life rests in you, you are what I live for and the distance between us can never be the void that it looks to be.  Not even death will keep me from coming home to you. Your waiting arms....your warm heart....your soft lips....your loving legs.....your caressing eyes....your gentle touch... If I ignite your thoughts, you set my soul a blaze! I dare to touch such a wonderful creature of GOD without care and caution.  GOD has blessed me with more than an angel....He has given me you...My own personal heaven...

I pace the floor, walking back and forth in my confusement. Anxiously awaiting. Knowing. It will have his scent, posses his touch. Has been licked with the softness of..., him. It will arrive with his word vacating the envelope taking refuge in my heart. Alas the carrier drops his decadence into my waiting hands.., my heart skips. I slowly raise the letter to get a whiff of what I have been anticipating for so long. Slowly running my finger across the seal of love that has been given to me. 

Gently I open it's edge and remove any sureties or absoluteness. I glare at the words glaring at me. "satisfy your mind so that you will know that I too". Damn can he be feeling my every thought? "Am attracted to you for more than that of the physical" but I've heard that line before. "If I ignite your thoughts, you set my soul a blaze", I know I can't be the only one but he makes me feels as if there is none. What is this man doing to me.. I know more of what I want.., I can't have. He was given to me, and I to him but what kind of heaven can we have.? When we're heavens apart.

Deep

Grey sky, thundering waves
Wash away all my tears
Give me back the power to trust

Alleviate all of my fears.

I loved a man with a passion deep;
Yes, deeper than the sea,
Oh! talk to me with your breakers loud
How could he do this to me?

To every ill that stalks this Earth
A cure in nature is found
So speak to me with your watery voice
Why did MY love run aground?

Confusion

How do you find love in darkness or is 
that why they say love is blind? It's the simple things I crave but does it seem
illusive because life is so complicated or is life complicated because I live a
life of illusion? I struggle and fight to feel your passion or can I not find
where your passion lies because it's been lost in a frustrating trail of regret?
Its my lonesome tears that keeps me fighting for a love as blind as ours but how
do you hold on to hope when it has been lost in deceit created by others? Faith
in you is faith in me longing to love free, but where do we find the space to be
free when from the beginning it was faulted by those un-willing to see? The
spirit of a love so strong binded my insecurity followed by hatred understood
with compassion yet falling quickly in to a pool of devastation, where does the
trust in us begin and the outer evils ignored to find that place where fate
brought us together and a love so meant to be can become worthy of all things
great? Sincerity lost in a sea of judgment where we once held each other dear
and true, how do we begin to move on when there was no end? Closure they say can
help us heal but how do we heal when the pain was inflicted with cruel
intentions not by you or I but by hands of outsiders looking in on something
they do not understand?  How do I let go of something I believed
in that has touched my very soul leaving me confused with bewilderment that it
has happened again leaving me unsure and afraid to love again? How do I say I'm
being selfish with out being vein, when true I want what I want but only to keep
me sane? Lost in your shadow, cold, lifeless and unstable fighting to see me,
how do I tell you I'm tired with sleepless nights and hectic days with out
inflicting sorrow upon your heart?

To be free of me is to be free of you,
can you imagine the possibilities of life with out us? I am now beginning to
see!

The Man With a Divided Heart

When u fall in love with a man who has a divided heart,
Your relationship is doomed right from the start.
As he tries to convince u that things are better than they seem,
he leads u down a path of empty promises and unfulfilled dreams.
Hot and steamy lovemaking filled with passionate cries
are followed by unanswered calls, disappearing acts and insulting lies.
His smooth and crafty words resonate in ur head,
as u lie awake at night in a cold empty bed.
Being shuffled about like a deck of card and feeling like a fool,
is the price u pay for being in love with a man who's totally confused.
U deserve to be loved by a God-fearing man who is stable and sincere,
not a man who has become an expert at saying things every woman wants to hear.
Get out of this mess, Girlfriend! God has better plans for u.
He wants to rebuild ur inner spirit and make it better than new.
U are a precious Child of God. U are beautiful and way to smart,
to stay in a damaging relationship with a man who has a divided heart...

Those Fuckin "FairyTales"

I once was told a story
of how my life would be
With a happily ever after
Such a childish fantasy

It wasn't till much later
That I knew I needed more
And that fairy tales and wishes
Wouldn't satisfy this whore

The prince rescued sleeping beauty
And loved her with all his might
But someone else was in her bedroom
Fucking her goodnight

Cinderella was a naughty one
And liked it from behind
She liked to be punished
She liked to be confined

Did snow white touch herself
When the seven dwarfs would sleep?
Dreaming of another lover
Who would fuck her oh so deep

Alice dreamed of wonderland
On those restless summer days
But at night her body belonged
To the mad hatter and his wicked ways

Love is overrated
Love’s just not enough
It's those dark needs that control us
Dark and dirty and rough

So when you wish upon a star
It makes a difference who you are
There is no happily ever after
Unless it leaves a scar