My Bic Been Cheatin On Me

My bic been cheating on me he say I don't give him paper anymore, that he don't sense my cravings anymore...plus I haven't fully touched him in a while, tired of me picking him up then putting him down...got his head twisted off., lost & can't be found, lonely & deprived is the emotions he feels right now...I’m in-denial that he's in the house with a hand with no poetic style, got me acting like a child..., mumbling.. My "bic" been cheating on me!???? Never!!! We had too many good times together, I remember the first time we hooked up I looked up & it was love at first sight, I walked him out the store that night, first checked him out then left on my bike! We started the unthinkable on the brink of something new, it was you who was there when I didn't have a clue, no ideas or direction no delivery or expression, you knew just what to do...you let me open you up grab u firmly, work my hands down your outta layer until I reached my comfort zone, I began quickly stroking you on white sheets until my palms experienced light heat, when you released the aftermath was pleasant, when it registered it felt like the texture of feathers to my soul ..and reading you to believe in you had me addicted on the daily needing you...now your needs been abandoned so I believe it’s true! My "bic" been cheating on me! Say anything you want to convince him it won’t work, I need action mixed with being sincere, I need drive mixed with a plan to steer, I fear he found a connection with another sista, got me under-covers dreaming bad things, what if he's is being abused lifted & thrown across a room? What if he's being twisted bent out of shape & can't consume? What if he’s in the hands of a nut-case that don't know his potential? What if he's drained & refrained from resting & he can’t get to this mental? I feel the feeling of being arrested neglected while lost & disconnected but I know why... My "bic" been cheating on me! Never will I sit here & not fight with all my might, I vowed to hold him to end of my life, I’m focus mentally open I have repaired that light, my vision on target & the block is gone, come back home & leave that impostor alone, I can make you dis-charge the best, take you to my pad to create your poetic sounds, transferring my thoughts to your body having you spill what I feel is real, we so compatible with an admirable bond, so from this day on I will get on the same page with you, let my body & soul engage with you, I forgive you for the phase you went through, you have needs and my mind was in a cage from you, I promise to take it to the next stage with you, long nights & long days with you, I will cater to your enjoyment & purpose if you stop searching,you know I love my 'bic" like a man loves his "bitch" excuse my French, but I was hurting when I found out... My "bic" been cheating on me! I miss my pen! :)

Face2Face

Not far from the edge drunken without drink 

The moisture of a storm, a passionate hot breeze 

Sons of the desert take me to the brink 

Above the canyons of tomorrow where I see 

The future freeze.

Like a bird on the wing in the wind stream 

Freedom-flying from this momentary glance 

I feel the pull of the moon like a sweet dream 

When first awakened from a temporary trance. 

Then by the winged feet of daybreak’s deathless dawn 

I heard the singer cry life’s never-ending song:

“Youth that’s spent in hast soon tires of the race 

and the more you turn your back the more 

you’re face-to-face.” 

Just A Verse Is All You Get

Night's spent... Dark skies until the sunrise.... 
heightened senses with impaired vision but the view, breathtaking... 
Prepare to bare witness... sights seen like dreams but eyes open, frozen in time.... 
My guiding light golden, shine... Behold the wonders of the world through words spoken... 
Chosen are those who have chosen but chose wisely.... Finding solace in confined spaces.... 
Once consumed with the scent of roses, now nothing left but traces.... of broken flower vases...
basic blameless basis came from a paint brush stroke... An art piece... An Artist... farfetched regardless... My departure is far spent, Daylight turned from darkness.

DAMN!

What’s a woman to do

When she tells you she’s not really looking

No expectations, so many sensations, in her relations

Take her hand, speak like a man

What’s a woman to do

When she finds someone that does more for her

Love Lost

I was lonely, I was lost
I knew there was happiness, but at what cost?
I had happiness once
And now it seemed to be lost.

I had given out, I had given up
I really didn't care much if the sun came up
I was sad, I was a mess
Very uncaring, and even more depressed.

Beautifully Poetic

There it goes

tapping a my soul's window

Penetrating my emotional,

begging for release to flow

No where to go

Captively held deep within

Me vowing to never let it speak again

It, which was once my friend

Who spoke to much

revealing my secrets

Holding me in its clutch

While presumably setting me free

Poetry..........

untitled (couldn't think of one)

Staring out a smeared window into the distance. 
Looking for something that I felt...no, that I knew existed. 
It was a love that my mind had consumed. 
A sudden instance that I knew I couldn't get from you. 
See, in his arms is where my heartbeat found it's tune. 
And when my body was wrapped in his 
there was a sudden moment of a love brand new. 
And when we kissed, my emotions I felt. 
And I knew deep within, this couldn't be provided by no one else. 
And then what I thought truly existed became a distant memory. 
And the tears I cried, they alone couldn't set me free. 
This broken heart I carried with me through the day and on into my sleep. 
The words he spoke as he left is that, no one could ever love me...
not the way he did or could even make me feel as good. 
And then I found that what I longed for, only you could provide. 
A love that'll be forever not just this lifetime. 
I've looked all over trying to find love in the only places I knew. 
Until I realized that there's no other love, greater than you!

I NEVER KNEW YOU

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT I’VE ALWAYS FELT YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT IF I EVER CAME CLOSE TO YOU I WOULD KNOW YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT IN LIFE I’VE ALWAYS DESIRED YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT MY HEART HAS ALWAYS HAD LOVE FOR YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT I SWEAR I WOULD GIVE MY ALL TO YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, YET MY EYES ALWAYS SEE YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, YET I ALWAYS BREATHED YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, YET WITH EVERY THOUGHT, MY LIFE IS INSPIRED

I NEVER KNEW YOU, SO WHY IS IT I CAN’T STOP THINKING OF YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, SO WHY IS IT MY HEART YEARNS FOR YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, SO WHY IS IT MY LIFE DEPENDS ON YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT THE VERY ESSENCE OF YOU SPARKS SUNSHINE IN MY LIFE 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT IN MY DREAMS IT SEEMS AS IF I CONVERSE WITH YOU 

I NEVER KNEW YOU, BUT HOW WILL I KNOW YOU, UNTIL I FIRST FIND ME!!! 

Healed Hurt

I am hurt so I hurt and that is not fair to hurt the people who really do care I am tierd and in pain sometimes my heart feels slain

Sometimes my mind feels cluttered

Sometimes my spirit is like a tossed salad

Sometimes my body is like a two week old rose

My speech makes no sense

I hurt so I hurt and that is not fair because all guys are not the same and I know that there is one out there

One who will set my soul to another level of non stop flowing of a valcanoes lava

One who will make my heart pump from the outside man when God blesses me with this guy

Assume The Position

 Sirens blaring being blinded by a flash light
More on looking pedestrians than the black hawk crash sight
Just last night
He was laying in bed dreaming of a peaceful place
Now he's standing here, hand on this hot ass hood pulled over cause of his race

Blind Liberty

In remote areas of my mind
I travel thru time
So blind
To the innocence of my own kind
Press rewind

An the thoughts replay over and over like a repeat function
Best friend got popped in the head next to him but told the pigs he didnt see nuthing
I see sumthing

Maternalism

Serenity/Bliss
they bring it all with their signature mix
Suspended in this,
brings me internal warmth and my temperature lifts
Rejuvenating my youth with their essence alone
When there, my tension's soothed like I've stepped in my home
Different shades creates the days into nights of their weather
Liking the sunny colors,
but concluded the darker delights are just better
My desires are wetter so thunderous storms they supply are my pleasure
Even in rain, their surroundings maintain
to bring me fires in sectors
As seasons change, it seems deranged
with the ways their moods swing
Concurring with the dispersing of sunlight
and blossoming full moon beams
Circles of power surface to flower the planet with inspiration

Gemineye - "Penny for Your Thoughts"

Contradiction

While they are teaching you, they are breaking you,

While they are making you,, they are raping you.

While instilling, they are blinding you.

While they show you everything, you miss out on what’s important to you,

They are overwhelming you.

The influence of the majority is still their most powerful tool!

While they influence, pain inspires you.

While you worship them, they feed you new liars!!!

While you become sick from their ways, they recruit new fools!

And you support the liars!

While you’re so proud of what you have, they take it from you.

While you’re not questioning, they are finding answers.

While you’re on page twenty, they've written books and added new chapters.

You know the saying, tell one lie, you gotta tell another…while you've grown so complex,

They've become even more!

To much of anything will kill you, a true rule of the heart.

I've mastered complex, I’m pure simple, go with the heart.

I Am My Pen

Thru the highlight of events, from the leadership to the domestic violence…
None of that scared her more, than her writing.
Left it all behind, still carrying the notebooks,
Pain is what she was reciting...
Living her life, the way she wanna,
not caring about the judge,
no matter how ignorant they judged...
she's always been able to look thru you,
And keep writing…

I Need

I need a fairytale, a world wind, a prince, a white night, a gladiator, a lion, a wolf in man's clothing!

I need a hero, a superman, a ray of light, someone to make me feel this life, to lift me high above the clouds, to unblind my eyes to see the sunrise.

I need a crush, a love, a lustful lust, a simple touch, a feel that's way to much, someone strong to hold in my clutch.

I need a kiss, a wet kiss, a deep juicy kiss, one that when he's gone, I would truly miss.

I need hands, hands that will touch me everywhere, hands that are large or small, I don't care!

I Need!!!

I need to be held, held tight and never let go, hands to touch my body, sometimes nice and sometimes slow.

I need to feel, to feel his body pressed against mine, for him to drown me, drown into me like a fine red wine.

I need a pulse, a heart beat a throbbing to release my soul, to warm my blood because right now it's cold!!

I need a breath to breath deep into me, bring me back to life, to open my eyes from this dark allowing me to see the light.

I Need!!!

Today's Tomorrow

Like an echoed word spoken soft, whispered silent

... Today

searching still but heard, wonder where all the time went
... Tomorrow

some say "Love Today", make your own,

not to borrow, do not let time stray .....
Today, Tomorrow

it's not how it goes, to find faith is not first sight
... Today

no ribbons or bows unless each heart is set right
... Tomorrow

time is in the weigh 
to balance love's story
sometimes blue, some in sorrow ...
make love the right way,
Today, Tomorrow

Velvet in Motion

I have never felt

velvet before ...

that breathes

expanding night's horizons

stretching me

to unknown limits

giving me strengths, abound

to share heavenly lights

suddenly touchable

allowing me to be not someone

but THE one

filling your glass

complimenting your thirst

savoring your taste ...

deeply, eternal

before the dawn finds sleep

and such stars

crush

Experienced

I Was Not Born 
Experienced
But
The Hard Realities,
Deceiving Natures,
Broken Promises,
Double Faces,
Attractive Words,
Melting Emotions,
Lovely Feelings,
Harsh Truths,
Bitter Behaviors,
Loving Attitude,
Ignoring Acts,
Multi Standards
& False Statements.
These All Taught Me
What Experience Is

In Writing

I can make the ordinary
Sound extraordinary

in writing
I can take a simple moment, 

freeze it, embrace it
And turn it into an unforgettable experience

in writing
I can take you on a journey with my words
Hear me, 

feel me

in writing
You're the passenger 

just relax 

and enjoy what I’m sharing with you.

in writing
I can make you see things you never noticed before
Or payed much attention to.
See the world though my eyes
The eyes of an artist

in writing